當你放棄探索,人生就結束了
Life is only worth living when there are things to explore.
當你放棄探索，人生就結束了
Romain Rolland once said:
"Most men die at twenty or thirty;
thereafter they are only reflections of themselves，
for the rest of their lives they are aping themselves,
repeating from day to day more and more mechanically and affectedly what they said and did and thought and loved when they were alive."
Recently, I suddenly realized that this quote is talking about me.
I chose a stable job back as a civil servant in my hometown under my parents' advice after I graduated from college.
The job is easy. And my workload is quite small.
So I have penty of time of mine own to spend.
I bought my car and my house and went on dates which are arranged by my parents.
Everything goes well in my life.
But, last month I went to a classmates reunion. And it crashed my heart.
When we were having the meal. Some of my classmates talked about their interesting jobs and interesting challenges in Internet companies. Some of them were talking about strategies in investing in fund and stocks. Some of them were talking about all the new skills they have been learning, which I hadn't even heard of.
But I? All I could talk about was that my wife just got pregnant.
And now it seems like my child is about to take the same boring path that I have taken.
Is this the life that I want?
Is this even life?
This suddenly becomes so horrible to me. I can't live like this.
And that's why I started to search for a new job. I don't want to die when I am thiry.
Life is only worth living when there are things to explore.
羅曼·羅蘭曾說：
“很多人在20歲、30歲的時候就死了，
一過這個年齡，他們只不過變成了自己的影子
此后的余生不過在模仿自己中度過，
日復一日，更機械，更裝腔作勢地重復他們有生之年的所作所為、所思所想、所愛所恨。”
最近，我忽然發現這則引言說的就是我。
大學畢業之后，我聽從父母的建議，在家鄉找了一個穩定的公務員工作。
工作很輕松，工作量也很小。
所以我有充足的時間可以自由支配。
我買好了車和房子，并根據父母的安排去約會。
生活中的一切都很順利。
但是，上個月我去了一個同學聚會。而我的心徹底被打碎了。
宴席上，有些同學在談他們在互聯網公司那些有趣的工作、有趣的挑戰，有些談起他們在基金和股票上的投資策略，有些則在談他們在學的一些新技能，而這些技能我聽都沒聽過。
而我呢？我能說的只是我太太前不久懷孕了。
現在看來，似乎我的孩子也要走上我走過的這條無聊道路。
這真的是我想要的生活嗎？
這真的是生活嗎？
我突然覺得這無比可怕。我不能這樣生活下去。
而這，也就是我重新開始找工作的原因。我不想在30歲就死去。
生活，只有在還有新事物可以探索的時候，才值得活下去。
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