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Still, she often appeared anxious about my love affair, and would ask questions that seemed to me strange, almost as though she feared that something would happen to destroy my romance. But I was quite unprepared for her outburst when I mentioned that George thought of paying a lightning visit to England before we were married."He must not do it,"she cried."Ina, you must not let him go. Promise me you will prevent him."she was trembling all over. I did what I could to console her, but she looked so tired and pale that I persuaded her to go to her room and rest, promising to return the next day.
但她對我的婚姻大事還是經常掛在嘴邊。她常常問一些怪怪的問題,幾乎像擔心我的婚事會告吹一樣。當我提到喬治打算在婚前匆匆回一趟國時,她竟激動了起來。只見她渾身哆嗦著大聲嚷道:"他不能回去!愛娜!你不能放他走,你得答應我不放他走!"我盡力安慰她,但她還是顯得萎靡不振。我只得勸她回屋休息,并答應第二天再去看她。
When I arrived I found her sitting on the stoep. She looked lonely and pathetic, and for the first time I wondered why no man had ever taken her and looked after her and loved her. Mother had told me that Great-aunt Stephina had been lovely as a young girl, and although no trace of that beauty remained, except perhaps in her brown eyes, yet she looked so small and appealing that any man, one felt, would have wanted to protect her.
我第二天去看她時,她正坐在屋前的門廊上,流露出抑郁孤寂的神情。我第一次感到納悶:以前怎么沒有人娶她、照料和愛撫她呢?記得母親曾經說過,斯蒂菲娜老姑以前曾是一個楚楚可愛的小姑娘。盡管除了她那褐色的眼睛尚能保留一點昔日的風韻之外,她的美貌早已蕩然無存。但她看上去還是那樣小巧玲瓏、惹人愛憐,引起男人們的惜香憐玉之情。
She paused, as though she did not quite know how to begin. Then she seemed to give herself, mentally, a little shake. "You must have wondered ", she said, "why I was so upset at the thought of young George's going to England without you. I am an old woman, and perhaps I have the silly fancies of the old, but I should like to tell you my own love story, and then you can decide whether it is wise for your man to leave you before you are married."
我走到她的跟前。她拍著身邊的椅子,淡淡一笑。"坐下吧,親愛的,"她說,"我有話要告訴你。"她欲言又止,好像不知道話從何說起似的。接著,她仿佛振作了起來。她說:"我聽你說喬治要回國,又不帶你走,心里非常不安。我這份心事你是不明白的。我是一個老婆子了,大概還懷著老人們的那顆癡心吧。不過,我想把自己的愛情故事講給你聽。這樣你就能明白在你們結婚之前讓你的未婚夫離開你,是不是一個明智之舉。"
"I was quite a young girl when I first met Richard Weston. He was an Englishman who boarded with the Van Rensburgs on the next farm, four or five miles from us. Richard was not strong. He had a weak chest, and the doctors had sent him to South Africa so that the dry air could cure him. He taught the Van Rensburg children, who were younger than I was, though we often played together, but he did this for pleasure and not because he needed money.
"我第一次遇見理查德?威斯頓時還是一個年輕姑娘。他是一個英國人,寄宿在我家附近四、五英里一個農場上的范?倫斯堡家里。他身體不好,胸悶氣短。醫生讓他去南非讓干燥的氣候治好他的病。他教倫斯堡的孩子們念書,他們都比我小,盡管我們經常在一塊玩。理查德是以教書為樂,并不是為了賺錢。
"We loved one another from the first moment we met, though we did not speak of our love until the evening of my eighteenth birthday. All our friends and relatives had come to my party, and in the evening we danced on the big old carpet which we had laid down in the barn. Richard had come with the Van Rensburgs, and we danced together as often as we dared, which was not very often, for my father hated the Uitlanders. Indeed, for a time he had quarreled with Mynheer Van Rensburg for allowing Richard to board with him, but afterwards he got used to the idea, and was always polite to the Englishman, though he never liked him.
"我和理查德是一見鐘情,盡管直到我18歲生日那天我們才表示彼此的愛慕之情。那天晚上的舞會上,我們的親友都來了。我們在倉房里鋪上一條寬大的舊毛毯,翩翩起舞。我和他壯起膽子頻頻起舞。但事實上,沒有多少次,因為我的父親很討厭'洋人'。有一次,他曾抱怨說倫斯堡先生不應該讓理查德寄住在他的家里,為此還跟他吵過一場,他后來就習以為常了。雖談不上喜歡,但對這個英國人以禮相待。"那是我一生中最快樂的一個生日,因為理查德在跳舞間歇將我領到外面清涼的月光中,在點點繁星之下對我傾訴愛慕之情,并向我求婚。我二話沒說答應了他的要求,因為我早已心醉神迷,想不到父母親會說什么。我的心中除了理查德和他的愛情,什么也顧不上了。
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